Do you trust Me?

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I was in a flap. I could feel my tummy flip flopping around as I became aware of the latest drama to hit my life. It was a small tempest, to be honest. Nothing huge, nothing earth-shattering or deadly. But still, it hit my tummy like a boxing glove and set my heart a-fluttering.

After stewing about the situation, pondering it, dissecting it, and talking to a couple of people, I set a plan into action.

But as I did, and as I continued to go about my next tasks, I thought about my reaction. To be sure, there was a physical reaction (thanks, sympathetic nervous system…), but I think that my head reaction made things worse than they needed to be.

And in a flash of insight that hit my heart, I asked myself, “Am I trusting God right now?”

I like to think that I trust God. I talk to him a lot, I worship in song with music, I read His Word, I declare His promises. I trust Him…. in theory, that is. But what about when facing a crisis? As I mentioned, this crisis was likely rated ‘small potatoes’ on a scale of world issues.

Did this look like a ‘trusting stance’ when I got some unexpected news?

I imagined Jesus looking upon me as I {fretted, paced, chewed my lip, thought and pondered, phoned a friend} wondered about what to do. Would Jesus look at me and say that I was trusting the Father in the midst of the circumstances?

I don’t think so.

And when that realization hit me, I fell to my knees and with tears running down my face, I admitted to God that I was not trusting Him. And I asked for His help to trust, despite the circumstances. The next question I asked myself was, what was I really afraid of here? There had to be something that I was afraid of, causing my tummy to tremble. An answer came as I honestly sat with the Lord and I repented of this specific fear.

I then asked myself, what does it practically mean to trust God? What does it look like?

I believe that our heroes in the Bible were afraid at times. Look at Moses. Look at David and the psalms he wrote. Look at Gideon, who laid his fleece before God, not once, but twice.

Why is our default fear? I think that God recognizes our propensity to that emotion. Maybe he calls us ‘sheep’ for a reason in Scripture! (Have you ever met a brave sheep??) But how many times in the Scriptures have I read “Do not fear.”   “Do not be afraid.”

Is.26:3  “You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.”

What does it mean to have a ‘steadfast mind’? The Message translates it as, “People with their minds set on you, you keep completely whole”.  Many other translations state a similar thing.

Keeping my mind on Christ. Keeping my eyes fixed on Jesus. Knowing that Jesus is in the boat with me as the storm rages around me. And he keeps entreating me to turn my panicked eyes away from the rain, the pelting hail, the fierce wind to focus on His laughing eyes, His warm and joyful smile. For Him, any storm we face is small beans. For the One who created all things with the breath of His mouth, He is God of the impossible; we need to trust in Him. He is bigger than any circumstances.

Jesus, forgive us for forgetting how big you really are. Forgive us for the times when our eyes are focussed on the storm, rather than on you.

I obviously have some work to do in this area. Trusting, that is. Trusting in a real, raw, practical kinda way. I’m going to need God’s help to do this. Because I’m not sure that I know how to do this quite yet. I don’t have the answers. But I do have the answer: His name is Jesus. And He is bigger than any storm that rages.

I praise Him!

Prov.3:5        Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.

Is.43:1-3           But now, this is what the Lord says—
    he who created you, Jacob,
    he who formed you, Israel:
“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
    I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
When you pass through the waters,
    I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
    they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
    you will not be burned;
    the flames will not set you ablaze.
For I am the Lord your God,
    the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;

Psalm 91       Those who dwell in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.”

Surely God will save you from the fowler’s snare and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday. A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you…

“Because they love me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue them; I will protect them, for they acknowledge my name. They will call upon me, and I will answer them; I will be with them in trouble, I will deliver them and honour them…”

Psalm 56     “When I am afraid I will trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?”