The unscratchable itch


There is a hunger within my spirit that is hard to articulate to others.

The best analogy I can come up with is that it’s like an itch that I cannot scratch. I can’t quite reach it. And therefore, I can’t get relief from it.

It’s like my spirit is itching. It’s itchy for… more. I’m hungry for more. I’m thirsty for more.

“More what??” you might ask.

Well, darling, I’d love to be able to explain what I mean…. and yet I cannot…

I go to places where (supposedly) I am able to get my itch scratched… but I leave feeling more itchy than I came.

The only relief for this itch I find in one place:

At the feet of Jesus.

It is there, in abandoned worship, that I hear him speak into my spirit and soul and slake this thirst, sate this hunger, and scratch this insatiable itch, with his fresh words of life.

I’m tired of “religion” with its empty words. I’m tired of talk and lack of action. I’m tired of apathy; I want to see transformation.

I’ve glimpsed the miraculous. I’ve seen and heard the Spirit. And my spirit is just not quite satisfied with what is around me.

I know there is more. Much more….

In the gospels, the blind see, the lame walk, and the sick are healed at a touch from Jesus. This is what I crave. This is the life I want to walk in.

I want to see the addicted freed, the unloved loved upon, the sick healed, the oppressed set free.

I want to see God’s Kingdom come… here and now. I am to be a Kingdom-carrier. I am to be salt and light in this world. I am to love the hopeless, feed the hungry, clothe the naked, care for the orphan. I am to be the hands and feet of Jesus.

But most importantly, I am to sit at His feet and take time in His presence, so that I might more beautifully and more fully carry Him as I walk in the world.

 “…but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” (Luke 10:42)

Here is another beautiful Jesus-lover seeking ‘more than church’ and finding it in loving the homeless in practical ways:  click here.

Are you hungry for more? Perhaps this sermon might intrigue you, as it did me: The Gift of Hunger


2 responses »

  1. Love this! and the fact that if we do even barely scratch it, the scratch moves to another place (:
    once we reach the ceiling of one room, we hit the floor of the next- thank you Jesus!

    • This reminds me of a song by Carolyn Arends. Reaching “We are reaching for the future wea re reaching for the past and no matter what we have we reach for more. We are desperate to discover what is right beyond our grasp. Maybe that’s what heaven is for.” It’s a beautiful song. I believe that having the desire to know God and to know Jesus better is amazing, but we also have to have balance and accept where we are at so God can work his good and perfect will in us. Some things are just meant for us to wait and see until another time! 🙂

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