During a visit with a friend recently, right in the middle of the conversation I felt quite sad. I felt like getting down on my knees and praying right there, but thought my friend might think ‘that’s kinda weird!’ It is kinda weird! Why would I feel like that suddenly? And not wanting to appear rude right in the middle of the conversation (!!) I suppressed the urge that I had to fall on my knees.
Sometimes at church, or in other ‘religious’ settings, I have had a similar feeling, but I would describe it more like a feeling of agitation in my spirit. But I didn’t really know what to do with it. I would usually try to figure out what brought the feeling on. I would talk to others. I would think about it, I would reflect, introspect, dissect. All for naught. The answer wouldn’t be clear. I would usually forget about it until it occurred again and then, once again, I would go through several hours of pondering and thinking about it. To be honest, I would feel bothered by it because I just couldn’t understand it.
For many years now I have had experiences that I didn’t quite understand like that. Some clarity was shed last night when a friend emailed about her experience and discovery of ‘travailling prayer‘. If you wish to understand more about it, this link sheds a lot of light. 🙂
So I have now discovered that when I feel those emotions in my heart and my spirit, it is a call to pray. Even though I may not understand what, or who, I am praying for, I am simply to be obedient and to allow the Spirit to pray through me. I spent time this morning on my knees in prayer…. and it was the most astonishing, amazing, incredible experience of prayer with the Spirit.
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God. Rom.8:26-27